I figured I should fill in the details of my life for those of you who have been asking, since I've been rather bad yet again about posting here. I'm not sure why, really, but perhaps it's due to a slight disconnect I've been feeling in general. ( Stuff on the kids I teachCollapse )
In other news:
I'm still waiting to hear if I got the grant to do a PhD at WAAPA. All of my plans post-December pretty much ride on this. If I get the grant, I'll spend some time at home before heading there in February. If I don't get the grant, I'll spend some time at home and come back here and continue to get my ass kicked by autistic kids probably. And I'll keep looking for more financial aid. I know I really want to do a PhD, but I won't be taking out any more loans to do it. I've got enough on my back paying for my masters. And coming back here to work is mainly it's a financial decision. If I uprooted and moved without a job or situation to go into, it would just end up costing me more. And it's still slightly better to be earning the pound, even if it's weakening.
I've been pretty sick for about a month now. It started with a basic flu and progressed to a cough that wouldn't go away. And not just an annoying hacking cough, but the kind where you can't breathe when laying down. After about four weeks of coughing, I finally went to the doc who told me I've been walking around with mild pneumonia. I've been spending the last few days confined couch or bed with only my laptop and tv for company mainly.
Normally, I'm not too bothered when I get sick and I'd like to think I'm pretty tough, but this one has been wearing me down. I finally hit a low point when I was sitting by myself in my flat, unable to make myself a cup of tea. I just couldn't do it. I just wanted to call someone and cry, but I couldn't think of anyone to call. This is the hard part about being out here. I've got some really good friends, but at the same time, I'm still on my own for most of this stuff. It can wear ya down a bit. But it's temporary. Hopefully the horse strength antibiotics will do the trick and I can get back out there where I won't feel so on my own.
But other than that, life goes on and isn't that bad really. I've been getting to some good music events and soon will be able to perform in them too hopefully. I've also resolved to do an open mic night before Christmas.
And I'm really lucky to be having a good job doing good work even if it's not what I planned on. I work with great people, and have made some great friends. There are so many cool people in my life these days and I'm in awe of most of them. (Hopefully they will be in awe of my cooking when they all come over for Thanksgiving). But I'm really looking forward to spending some time with my family this Christmas...I miss them!
And I'll leave you with a little shot I call "Irony in London". Can you spot it? (you may need to zoom in from the web album to spot it)
Send me some comment love! I miss you!